20051007
6:32:00 PM
/i lay awake in streams.
as i let the last 15 minutes of hurt rule my dreams.
/the phone,it rings. as it is pressed between my ears and cold hands.
/the ringing.it stops. the voice i was hoping to hear at the end of the line didnt respond. "hello?" i whispered. but silence responded.
/i heard you talking and laughing. who is it?
you didnt seem to realise you answered my call. wait. maybe you did. you did it on purpose,just so i could bleed.
/your laughter,it began to diminish. and suddenly,i heard hers!
/FUCK YOU! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME!
/there was nothing i could do to grapple with my emotions.
weep, i did. as i sat in horror as my heart and ears bleed.
/i lay awake once again, astray.
to let that last 15 minutes rule my day.
between the sheets
\garbage & garnish
\ cocktail.spree
+dawnthen
+twenytytwo\three\onenineeightnine
+adore\ granny.edgey.family.
+bartend.
\ caribbeansunset
30ml gin
30ml blue curacao
30ml creme de banane
30ml lemon juice
30ml fresh cream
dash of grenadine
\ fuzzynavel
2ounces vodka
2ounces peach schnapps
12ounces orange juice
\ gratefuldead
1/4ounce vodka
1/4ounce rum
1/4ounce tequila
1/4ounce triplesec
1/4ounce chambord
cola to taste