cocktail.spree

2007-03-24T20:18:00.000+08:00

2007-02-14T14:24:00.000+08:00

/St. Valentine
Passed: February 14th 269 A.D

Reality: "Love is a trap. When it appears, we see only it's light, not it's shadow."

Cupid: "But love is always new. Regardless of whether we love once, twice, or a dozen times in our life, we always face a brand new situation. Love can consign us to hell or to paradise, but it always takes us somewhere. We simply have to accept it, because it is what nourishes our existence. If we reject it, we die of hunger, because we lack the courage to stretch out a hand and pluck the fruit from the branches of the tree of life. We have to take love where we find it, even if that means hours, days, weeks of disappointment and sadness. The moment we begin to seek love, love begins to seek us. And to save us."

Reality: "But love is much like a dam: if you allow a tiny crack to form through which only a trickle of water can pass, that trickle will quickly bring down the structure, and soon no one will be able to control the force of the current."

Cupid: "For when those walls come down, then love takes over, and it no longer matters what is possible or impossible; it doesn't even matter if we can keep the loved one by our side. To love is to lose control."

Reality: "Is it really? Or was St. Valentine decieved?"

"Besides, you do know that is why people call you 'Stupid Cupid' right? Catch up with the present already."

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2007-02-10T12:43:00.000+08:00

/One way ticket

/Standing on the border.
Looking out into the great unknown.
I can feel my heart beating faster as I step out on my own.

/There's a new horizon and the promise of favorable wind
I'm heading out tonight, traveling light.
I'm gonna start all over again.

/I'm going to buy a one-way ticket on a west bound train.
See how far I can go.
I'm going to go out dancing in the pouring rain, and talk to someone I don't know.

/I'm going to climb the mountain, and look the eagle in the eye.
I won't let fear clip my wings and tell me how high I can fly.

/Freedom was waiting, down at the station.
All I had to do was make up my mind.

/Well, I have walked through the fire.
And crawled on my knees through the valley of the shadow of doubt.
Then the truth came shining like a light on me and now I can see my way out.

/I'm going to buy a one-way ticket on a west bound train.
See how far I can go.
I'm going to go out dancing in the pouring rain, and talk to someone I don't know.

2007-02-08T21:05:00.000+08:00

2007-02-08T19:04:00.001+08:00

/Pictures of my thousand words, and more.

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2007-02-02T22:38:00.000+08:00

/Latin Mix
My Aunt and I attended latin classes this evening. Learnt the Merengue/Salsa/Chacha and Street Latin. Came out exhausted but it was extremely fun. Who knows, I might just take it up.

/Anyhow, it's home sweet home tomorrow! Have been packing, trying to fit all the heaps of stuff in. It was all worth it though, glad i shopped my ass off. I miss everything! The company, the food, and especially my hot baby king: Edgey! Oh well, home at last.
/Sweet, sweet home.

/I'd ring the bell, and he'd be there to welcome me home. Just like he has always done. This time, i know he would. This time he shall.
Definately.

2007-01-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

/My baby pumpkin pie,
"Where art thou when I'm falling?"

I miss edgey so much.

2007-01-04T14:41:00.000+08:00

Back to blog.
Haven't been able to do so, can't seem to find a proper connection.
Anyhow, i do for now. So here i am.

/Australia is FUN!
/Have been shopping my ass off. The day after i landed in Melbourne, it was of to the shopping mall. Spent almost the whole day there and spent 200 bucks as well. Too many things to buy, so little cash! It's frustrating.
/Oh well, so far, I've bought 2 big bags worth of clothes. More to come though.

/Chirstmas time; Here today, gone the next.
/The Christmas party was HOT! Had a feast with the other side of the family. Turkey, ham, baked potatoes, pork cracklings, sausage stuffings, hot gravy, fruit cake with brandy, fruits, and my all time favourate; champagne cocktails!!!!!(Had loads of them by the way. So you should be able to imagine the outcome of that.)
/It was a huge gathering with a traditional christmas feast! We cracked Bon Bons, got presents from Santa and everyone were in good spirits. Something you can never find in Singapore, neither good spirits nor traditional feasts. I'm extremely glad I've spent Christmas here. It was THE bomb. Adored it.
You guys should probably try it sometime.

/Luxury living
/Was living at my aunt's place but have been spending the week with my dad and siblings at an apartment in the city. Speaking of the apartement, it is extremely gorgeous. It's the tallest apartment building in the southern hemisphere and is 87 stories high. Hot or what? The view is breath-taking too. I wouldn't mind staying in an apartment like that, probably when i get 1 million bucks. Hell yes!

/The attractions
/A few days ago, we took a trip to Geelong where i meet my granduncle and his family. Thereafter, we went strawberry picking and headed to the beach. The sea was crystal clear but was cold as ice. It was fun as hell though. Woohoo!
/The Crown Casino was just a 5 minute walk from the apartment. There, we(siblings and cousin: Lincoln) caught a movie, whereas my dad, aunts and granny had the luxury of going into the casino. Gosh, i wanted to, so badly!
Oh well, just approximately 3 more months before i'll be able to. Ha. I can handle that.
/Also, we(family) took a train to Ballarat which was an hour away from the city. There, we visited the Ballarat Wildlife Park . Hand fed the kangaroos and their joeys which were extremely adorable, caught a glimpse of emus, koalas, giant tortoises and etc. Feeding the kangaroos was the most enjoyable. They were lying everywhere around the park and were extremely tame. You could pat and even hug them.
/Sweet creatures.

/Happy New Year!
/Gorgeous fireworks blazed across the sky. We(family) stood in the midst of a crowd of almost 200 000 thousand people and watched the illuminations in awe. What a way to welcome a new year.
/A convivial atmosphere indeed.

/P.S: Chunks of pictures will be displayed soon.

/Cheers this season!

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/Brought baby Edgey for a stroll by the beach today. His enthusiastic strides and eagerness to mark his territory never fails to put a smile on my face. Seeing him in such good spirits makes me feel untroubled, somewhat contented.
Despite that, it saddens me to know that I'll be robbed of his presence for a little more than a month. Will be off to Australia for a vacation; but then again, what's a vacation without your best friend? I'd miss those enchanting eyes, and most importantly, his significant presence.

/I can't do without. But i would see him soon. Sooner than expected. I'd ring the bell and he would be there to welcome me home.
/He would be there to comfort my fears all over again. I'm sure he would.
/He has to.

2006-11-21T18:03:00.000+08:00

2006-11-20T15:55:00.000+08:00

/At last!
/The agony of it all is OVER.
/Time to venture away into our playing grounds.

/Have truckloads of fun, playmates!

2006-09-04T13:24:00.000+08:00

/Driving Away From The Wreck Of The Day

/The light's always red in the rear-view,
And desperately close to a coffin of hope.

/If this is giving up, then I'm giving up.

/Driving away from the wreck of the day,
And I'm thinking about calling on Jesus,
/Because love doesn't hurt so I know I'm not falling in love,
I'm just falling to pieces.

/If this is giving up, then I'm giving up,
on love.

/Maybe I'm not up for being a victim.
/All my resistance will never be distance enough.

/Driving away from the wreck of the day,
And it's finally quiet in my head.

/Driving alone, on my way home, to the comfort of my bed.

/If this is giving up, then I'm
Giving up.

Giving up, on us.

2006-08-29T19:09:00.000+08:00

2006-06-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

/I seek refuge in dreams.

/It is the only sane place to be. A place where nothing is real, nor does it last.
Then again, you'd ask, how could that place be one that's ideal? How could it be the only worthwhile place to be?

/I'd say its because there is a fear i wont fall. It is what i make of it. It's the only place where time is powerless and a place where the mind rules over all. Everything good can happen, exactly how you'd want it to be. Flawless. And when you wake, its gone, but you've already had a feel of it. It was the only good thing that occured in a bad day. It was my comfort in a world where comfort doesnt exist.

/However, what would you do if your mind conjuers up nightmares instead? Ones that inflict raw pain and endless suffering in the timeless capsule. Trapped in a place where your mind plays hide and seek with your soul and you feel as though you're at the brink of insanity. You will begin to ask yourself and plead to your subconcious; When will this end?! When will the pain stop?! Just stop!

/The good news is, it does. They stop hurting you. Your heart, your soul, your wounds are healed. You're awake and they stop the endless torture. It's unlike the real world, where the hurt never stops, the wounds never heal and your heart is shattered beyond repair. Moreover, no matter how hard you scream, cry and beg them to 'stop!', they won't. Trust me, they won't. They never did. They never will.

/All the more we should appreciate nightmares. And of course it's because they are the ones the give me that relief. A relief that you'll know that is as bad as it gets and it's simply over. A relief that something good can actually arise from something entirely bad.

/What more harm could dreams do to us that the world has not already done?

2006-05-22T18:08:00.000+08:00

/His journey begins.
He had choices to make. Her love to forsake.

/He talked about the light,
but kept her in the dark.
He talked about paths and roads to take,
yet he refuses to lead her to them.

/He dreamed of roses on the other side of the cliff,
yet he discarded the only one he held upon the blades.
To get pierced and let drift.

/He talked about fate in his hands,
yet he chooses to ignore that hers, as well, was in his.

/His words, only he can believe.
His actions, only pain can describe.
His love for her, only time will tell.
Whatever happened to their yesterdays?
/Looking at the world from the bottom of a well.

/If it is roses he seeks, to hold for all eternity long,
to behold and gaze joyfully upon,
then may he find the one he admires, the one he now finds dear.
And leave the one he held thoughout all these years,
in bloody shreds and tears.

/Finally, he embarked in the light.
and left her to fend for herself in the dark.

/Nobody know where we might end up,
/Nobody knows.

2006-05-20T16:14:00.000+08:00

My heart needed no more suffering.

/If pain must come, may it come quickly.
Because i have a life to live, and i need to
live it in the best way possible.

/If he has to make a choice, may he make it now.
Then i will either wait for him or forget him.

/Waiting is painful. Forgeting is painful.

But not knowing what to do is the worse kind of suffering.

2006-03-24T21:34:00.000+08:00

/Have it all

/some days i feel like crying. it dont matter if its rain or shine.
i feel like my heart was broken, at least a million times.
/some days i wake up dreaming. feels like i never even woke.
i answer life's big question, as if it's one big joke.
/maybe it's too soon to be sure, but I really do believe that someday
we're gonna have it all.
/So I try to hard to keep the rhythm of a train, rolling right along.
When the ride gets rough you got to carry on,
Carry on.
/Some days I feel like singing.I sit back and just groove the day away.
Maybe pick up a guitar and play what I want to play.
/Maybe it's too soon to be sure, but I really do believe that someday
We're gonna have it all.
/So I try to hard to keep the rhythm of a train, rolling right along.
When the ride gets rough you got to carry on,
Carry on

/Today I feel like laughing. Seems to be no reason at all
And if the world stops spinning,
I'm not afraid to fall.

/CARRY ON

2006-03-15T19:02:00.000+08:00

/so softy and tenderly, i pull you to my heart.
you never thought to cover up.
/but something's wrong, i feel so rushed.
the air you breathe, its not enough.

/talk to me and justify it.
let me see, dont try to hide it.

/to see beyond the veil of lies was nothing.
but now they're fucked up blues.
i dont see answers,
i'm as blind as you.
/believe me, i'm running out of time.

/yet here i stand against the wall,
afraid to breathe, afraid to fall.
hide me away in the black of your heart.
hide me away and pick me apart.

/the air we breath,
its not enough.

/now whatever will become of me?

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2005-12-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

/fucked up christmas all over again.

2005-12-14T17:46:00.000+08:00

2005-10-24T13:57:00.000+08:00

\went to the beach with kerri yesterday.
\tanned, sat the luge and chairlift ride,hanged out.
\had truck loads of fun!
\cant wait to go again.
\shall we?

2005-10-24T13:55:00.000+08:00

lalalalalalalalala.
gayful days!

2005-10-22T14:19:00.000+08:00

\MONKEY madness at the bus stop! woah!

2005-10-22T14:18:00.000+08:00

\the new sir stamford raffles of farrer's bus stop!

2005-10-22T13:56:00.000+08:00

newsflash:
\yesterday was pure kickass FUN!
\went out with germs and clarence.
\watched 'the wig' which was total/utter NONSENSE!
\took loads of pictures in all the weird places.ha.
\at the end of it, we all had to wait for freakin 174 which took forever to arrive[i am not exaggerating, it really took forever]so we waited and waited............and damn it, we still waited.
\when it finally did arrive. i was so tempted to ask the bus driver:hey uncle,WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU DOING MAN!

\all in all, HAD hot tubs of FUN.

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2005-10-22T13:19:00.000+08:00

\those are some hot sexy shit.

2005-10-22T13:18:00.000+08:00

\love you guys!

2005-10-22T13:13:00.000+08:00

\hugs and kisses.

2005-10-22T13:12:00.001+08:00

\bathroom madness!

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\no comments.

2005-10-22T12:51:00.000+08:00

\germs favourite "restaurant". haha.

2005-10-22T12:18:00.000+08:00

so softly and tenderly, i pull you to my heart.
you never thought to cover up.
but something's wrong, i feel so rushed.
the air you breathe is not enough.

now whatever will ever become of me?
elegant waste and chivalry.
will i dream my life along?
or wake up to find your timing gone.

will i dream of wonderous things?
things that only god has seen.
or will i grow to love this world?
and only see the man machine.

yet, here i stand, against the wall.
afraid to breathe. afraid you'll fall.
that's when you come and hold me tight.
tell me everything will be alright.

but something's wrong, i feel so rushed.
the air you breathe....its not enough.

2005-10-21T13:13:00.001+08:00

\love you truck loads!

2005-10-21T13:11:00.000+08:00

\scream vs witch?

2005-10-21T13:10:00.000+08:00

\halloween time!! note:the wolf mask stinks!

2005-10-21T13:08:00.001+08:00

\loving you girls!

2005-10-21T13:07:00.000+08:00

2005-10-21T13:06:00.001+08:00

\mummy bought me pajamees.

2005-10-21T13:06:00.000+08:00

\gangstar lovin.

2005-10-21T13:05:00.001+08:00

\adorable little baby.

2005-10-21T13:05:00.000+08:00

\hat hat.

2005-10-16T12:03:00.000+08:00

14102005
1330hrs:subjects headed to kerri's house.
1400hrs:arrived safely.
the gang played ps2 and hanged-out.looked like fun.
1635hrs:the gang headed to meritus mandarin hotel.
checked in, and had the suite all to themselves.
1729hrs:gang seen enjoying themselves lazing around and taking pictures.
some subjects were seen heading down to subway and back to the suite to deliver food.
2145hrs:the gang was seen rushing to get ready for the party.
2245hrs:the gang met up with others and they clubbed the night away.
0500hrs:subjects seen heading down to swensens for "supper".
0600hrs:gang slept in suite with aches and pains all over.
end of investigation.

we danced the night away and had lots to drink.had truck loads of fun!and i especially want to thank those who made it possible!THANKS YOU GUYS!love you.

2005-10-16T12:01:00.000+08:00

\perfection.

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2005-10-16T11:55:00.001+08:00

\weeee...

2005-10-16T11:55:00.000+08:00

\kung pow chickens.

2005-10-16T11:53:00.001+08:00

\gangbang.

2005-10-16T11:53:00.000+08:00

\what would i do without this hotchoc?

2005-10-09T15:18:00.000+08:00

\i'll always treasure my sweet-loving, chocolate peanut fudge boy!

2005-10-09T15:16:00.000+08:00

\sharing spagetti sweets has never been the same.

2005-10-07T18:32:00.000+08:00

/i lay awake in streams.
as i let the last 15 minutes of hurt rule my dreams.

/the phone,it rings. as it is pressed between my ears and cold hands.
/the ringing.it stops. the voice i was hoping to hear at the end of the line didnt respond. "hello?" i whispered. but silence responded.
/i heard you talking and laughing. who is it?
you didnt seem to realise you answered my call. wait. maybe you did. you did it on purpose,just so i could bleed.
/your laughter,it began to diminish. and suddenly,i heard hers!
/FUCK YOU! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME!
/there was nothing i could do to grapple with my emotions.
weep, i did. as i sat in horror as my heart and ears bleed.

/i lay awake once again, astray.
to let that last 15 minutes rule my day.

2005-10-02T19:20:00.000+08:00

\our one and only weekly comic-reading session. wouldnt trade it for the world!

2005-10-02T19:18:00.002+08:00

\bored? read comics.

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\hehe so happy!

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\i'm a winner forever!

2005-10-02T19:17:00.000+08:00

\more medals for me!

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\worlds greatest chocolate peanut fudge pooch!

2005-09-27T20:15:00.000+08:00

\look mummy! i can play the piano!

2005-09-27T20:14:00.001+08:00

\hmm...whats that note again?

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\the precious baby sloth loves his blanky

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\sleepy peanut butter fudge head!

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\pampered peanut fudge boy

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\happy times

2005-09-22T10:40:00.000+08:00

\B.A.L.D.S forever.

2005-09-22T10:39:00.000+08:00

\my heaven!

2005-09-22T10:38:00.001+08:00

\bintan is the best!

2005-09-22T10:38:00.000+08:00

\trip to bintan

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\holy *@#%$